Every year in Arizona between the months of July and September we have what is called "Monsoon Season". It consists of spontaneous dust storms, tumble weeds, rain, thunder and awesome lightening. I filmed the following video around this time last year--you'll find me with my camera out quite often attempting to catch something spectacular! This particular night we had rolling thunder for hours on end and lightening constantly blowing up the sky! I had never seen anything like it in my life!
I love this time of year--it's unpredictable--the day will start out sunny, no clouds in the sky; all of the sudden the sky begins to turn brown and the storm begins! More often then not they don't last very long but can cause quite a bit of damage from what they call micro-bursts (small, very intense downdraft that descends to the ground resulting in a strong wind divergence). Tonight while I was driving home a lightening bolt shot across the sky right in front of me--it was intense! There have been times where the thunder has been so loud with lightening immediately after you'd think the lightening struck the backyard!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Time Traveling
Have you ever wondered what you'd look in styles from the past?? I found a program that you can upload your picture and make a yearbook picture starting from the year 1950 up to the year 2000! My mom and I got quite a kick out of some of the results!
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Masterpiece
My friend Luis created this picture from one taken of us at my sisters wedding! I'm taking a vote: Mustache or No Mustache??
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Good ol' Gallup
This past weekend I went to Gallup, New Mexico- my hometown- for a family reunion and it was also the 88th Annual Inter-Tribal Indian Ceremonial. Ceremonial is held every summer and Indian tribes from all over the nation come to town. There is a big parade and then at night the tribes all perform their traditional dances at Red Rock amphitheatre. It is really neat to see!
This is my Nanny and I- when I was a little girl everyone called me Louise Jr.- it cleared the "Milk Man" theory in regards to where I came from with my blonde hair and blue/green eyes since my parents are both dark hair dark eyes..
This is my Nanny and I- when I was a little girl everyone called me Louise Jr.- it cleared the "Milk Man" theory in regards to where I came from with my blonde hair and blue/green eyes since my parents are both dark hair dark eyes..
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Killer Grasshopper
We stopped to eat on our way up to Gallup this weekend and this is what was crawling on my moms car! It's was SO gross. My mom and I walked up close to it so I could get a good shot and as I was watching it thru my camera recording it, it flew away and my mom and I SCREAMED!! LOL It was awesome! In the middle of all the chaos I pushed stop so you can't here the screams and get the whole effect! Sorry. :) (I couldn't get the video to upload normal so I had to post it via You Tube)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
San Francisco
I LOVE San Francisco!! I love the weather, grant it I've been told I've lucked out the two times I've been there :) I love the people, the atmosphere, the architecture and especially their public transportation! This weekend I went to visit friends and attend a young single adult conference. My weekend started Thursday night- Kambria, my close friend and old college roommate picked me up from the airport with her friend Ciara. We went back to Kambria's and made chocolate chip cookies. Friday Kambria had to work all day so I took the bus into the city to wander around. The buildings and stores are incredible! Ross is four stories, Old Navy is two stories and Forever 21 is ginormous!! I came across the Farmers Market and had lunch there. Friday night Kambria, Ciara and I went and saw Paper Heart- I highly recommend seeing that movie when it gets to a theatre near you; it was really funny and sweet!
Saturday the real party started. We arrived at the Oakland temple where the conference was held. It was beautiful and there were over 2000 single adults- the turnout was impressive. There were many workshops and great talks given. Steve Young spoke and did a really good job! I've grown up around Steve and it was fun to see him in that atmosphere relating to things us as single adults are going through right now. After hours of workshops and a session of speed dating it was time to party! There were games, a service project, karaoke and of course a dance! Chris and I went and played Wii bowling and I almost beat him!! So close--I got the hang of it a tad to late...next time :)
Sunday was nice and relaxing with church and closing exercises. There were two talks that to me stood out the most. We had a lady who spoke in Relief Society about money management. It was really insightful and I gained a fresh perspective on ways to save and to be more aware of what my real needs are verses my wants. Another speaker I really enjoyed was Elder Lawrence's talk. He challenged us to pray and ask the Lord what it is that we as individuals need to work on or change in order to progress. He reiterated how personal and individualized the process truly is. What I need to work and focus on is different then what my mom for instance may need to do- the Lord is aware of us individually. He gave an account where a persons answer was simply to stop drinking Pepsi. Steve kind of touched on that too. He mentioned that when he would seek dating advice the advice was--- Pray, Good Luck and Pray! We laughed but really that's what it all comes down to. Later that night I went over to the "Frat House" and experienced the strategic game of Acquire--great game!
Monday was a day of pure adventure! I took the bus into the Financial District and met Chris for lunch. I enjoyed the company and the conversation- it was nice! He suggested I go over to the Presidio after lunch and that was something I had wanted to see as well. Chris directed me to the Presidigo and off I went! Thank you Chris! The Presidio is beautiful! It's a historic army post that has a lot of history and original buildings. It has been home to three nations. Along my adventure I met Mora and Joseph, they are park rangers there, and while we were on the shuttle we were admiring the houses in the area and they said that if you live in the homes you can't paint the walls and there are strict rules as to what you can and can't do to the outside- random fact I learned. In the Presidio you will find forests to explore, a national cemetery, Baker Beach, Chrissy Field and you can also access the Golden Gate Bridge. Next time I'm in San Francisco that is somewhere I'd like to spend more time; it's a very calm atmosphere and I could see how you could find clarity as you walk around or sit on the beach taking in the views. I hung out on the beach for awhile and picked up a cool sea shell and some neat rocks for Bubba. By the way the water was ice cold! Did I mention this entire adventure took place with me wearing heels!! Yeah that's right! :)
The fog is amazing when it starts to set in...the sky was clear when I first got down to the bridge;you could see the bridge really well.
Within the hour the fog set in and the bridge was gone.
The wind also started to pick up and it got a bit chilly.
After the Presidio I made my way back to Kambria's to get my stuff, I hailed a taxi to the BART (train) station and took the train to the the airport all by myself! LOVED IT!! While I was waiting for the train this creepy guy came up to me and asked if I liked R&B music? I said "no"- I really do like R&B just not at that moment :) he then went on to ask me if I would go out with him to that I also said "no" and then the kicker....he got a little closer and said "I have a room we can go to" Seriously?? Of course I said "no"-- it was a little scary only because I had all my stuff with me and I may have seemed a little naive but he walked away and I was safe! I got to the airport safely and while I was in line to check my bag there was the cutest little girl in front of me with her dad and young brother. She was probably two and her dad was holding her. All of the sudden she stopped playing with her dad, looked over his shoulder and said "Hi mom!" Her dad stopped and looked back over his shoulder to see who "mom" was then said "No, mom's in the car!" She just smiled and continued to play. I was quite impressed with the dad. He had two kids under the age of 4, he had to change flight plans, check in bags, keep the kids occupied and also keep his little girl from climbing onto the luggage scale trying to get to the conveyor belt. She started screaming when the lady at the counter took her car seat--apparently that happens often and the whole time he stayed calm and kept it all under control! I give him an A+ in multi-tasking.
Overall this weekend was fantastic! I have yet to be disappointed by the city. It was great to see old friends (old for some as in since April, LOL) and fun to meet new people I hope to keep in touch with! I'm really glad I was able to go--thank you Kambria for your hospitality. Love you SO much KamBam!
Saturday the real party started. We arrived at the Oakland temple where the conference was held. It was beautiful and there were over 2000 single adults- the turnout was impressive. There were many workshops and great talks given. Steve Young spoke and did a really good job! I've grown up around Steve and it was fun to see him in that atmosphere relating to things us as single adults are going through right now. After hours of workshops and a session of speed dating it was time to party! There were games, a service project, karaoke and of course a dance! Chris and I went and played Wii bowling and I almost beat him!! So close--I got the hang of it a tad to late...next time :)
Sunday was nice and relaxing with church and closing exercises. There were two talks that to me stood out the most. We had a lady who spoke in Relief Society about money management. It was really insightful and I gained a fresh perspective on ways to save and to be more aware of what my real needs are verses my wants. Another speaker I really enjoyed was Elder Lawrence's talk. He challenged us to pray and ask the Lord what it is that we as individuals need to work on or change in order to progress. He reiterated how personal and individualized the process truly is. What I need to work and focus on is different then what my mom for instance may need to do- the Lord is aware of us individually. He gave an account where a persons answer was simply to stop drinking Pepsi. Steve kind of touched on that too. He mentioned that when he would seek dating advice the advice was--- Pray, Good Luck and Pray! We laughed but really that's what it all comes down to. Later that night I went over to the "Frat House" and experienced the strategic game of Acquire--great game!
Monday was a day of pure adventure! I took the bus into the Financial District and met Chris for lunch. I enjoyed the company and the conversation- it was nice! He suggested I go over to the Presidio after lunch and that was something I had wanted to see as well. Chris directed me to the Presidigo and off I went! Thank you Chris! The Presidio is beautiful! It's a historic army post that has a lot of history and original buildings. It has been home to three nations. Along my adventure I met Mora and Joseph, they are park rangers there, and while we were on the shuttle we were admiring the houses in the area and they said that if you live in the homes you can't paint the walls and there are strict rules as to what you can and can't do to the outside- random fact I learned. In the Presidio you will find forests to explore, a national cemetery, Baker Beach, Chrissy Field and you can also access the Golden Gate Bridge. Next time I'm in San Francisco that is somewhere I'd like to spend more time; it's a very calm atmosphere and I could see how you could find clarity as you walk around or sit on the beach taking in the views. I hung out on the beach for awhile and picked up a cool sea shell and some neat rocks for Bubba. By the way the water was ice cold! Did I mention this entire adventure took place with me wearing heels!! Yeah that's right! :)
The fog is amazing when it starts to set in...the sky was clear when I first got down to the bridge;you could see the bridge really well.
Within the hour the fog set in and the bridge was gone.
The wind also started to pick up and it got a bit chilly.After the Presidio I made my way back to Kambria's to get my stuff, I hailed a taxi to the BART (train) station and took the train to the the airport all by myself! LOVED IT!! While I was waiting for the train this creepy guy came up to me and asked if I liked R&B music? I said "no"- I really do like R&B just not at that moment :) he then went on to ask me if I would go out with him to that I also said "no" and then the kicker....he got a little closer and said "I have a room we can go to" Seriously?? Of course I said "no"-- it was a little scary only because I had all my stuff with me and I may have seemed a little naive but he walked away and I was safe! I got to the airport safely and while I was in line to check my bag there was the cutest little girl in front of me with her dad and young brother. She was probably two and her dad was holding her. All of the sudden she stopped playing with her dad, looked over his shoulder and said "Hi mom!" Her dad stopped and looked back over his shoulder to see who "mom" was then said "No, mom's in the car!" She just smiled and continued to play. I was quite impressed with the dad. He had two kids under the age of 4, he had to change flight plans, check in bags, keep the kids occupied and also keep his little girl from climbing onto the luggage scale trying to get to the conveyor belt. She started screaming when the lady at the counter took her car seat--apparently that happens often and the whole time he stayed calm and kept it all under control! I give him an A+ in multi-tasking.
Overall this weekend was fantastic! I have yet to be disappointed by the city. It was great to see old friends (old for some as in since April, LOL) and fun to meet new people I hope to keep in touch with! I'm really glad I was able to go--thank you Kambria for your hospitality. Love you SO much KamBam!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Grandma Hale
I think about my Grandma Hale often. My moms mom, Doris, passed away from Breast Cancer in October 1993. It's her name seen on my cars Breast Cancer license plate.
Although I was only 11 at the time she passed away, I have very fond memories of the short time I did have with her. I remember sitting at the piano singing along while she played. She loved to play songs out of the Primary Childrens Song book- A Childs Prayer was one of her favorites. When I was old enough she taught me the top hand on the piano and after she passed away I took lessons determined to finish what she had started. My siblings and I would wake up in the morning and she would be sitting next to us on the bed waiting to say "Good Morning", gently running her fingers through our hair! It was such a calming gesture. Doris was such a strong, remarkable woman..I see where my mom gets it from. When my Grandma was sick, us kids would go to Idaho and stay with my Grandpa and Aunt Randy for the summer while my mom took Grandma to Texas for treatment! I remember missing my mom so much and being really homesick not fully understanding the extent of what was going on; but that the sacrifices being made were necessary. My grandma fought a long hard battle and our family did everything we could to save her! Sacrifices made then that seemed at the time SO big I realize now how really small of a sacrifice giving up time with my mom was so that she could spend those final moments with hers. I cannot imagine not having my mom here with me! I know that my mom thinks of her mom all the time and has moments she wishes Doris was still here. I am so grateful for the knowlege and testimony of eternal families and I know without a doubt that that's what keeps my mom going day to day. It's dumbfounding and tragic how many people in my life have been effected by breast cancer and/or cancer in general. My good friend Jasons mom passed away, my friend Justins wife passed away at the age of 25, my Great Grandma Garrard lost her battle, a sweet lady at my office is currently batteling the disease as well as a co-workers wife--that is only naming a few. I am so passionate about this cause and pray that a cure is found and one day soon we will be able to save more if not all of those men and women who are fighting for their lives against this cruel disease.Last night on So You Think You Can Dance two dancers performed a contemporary piece called "This Womans Work". It's about a woman who is fighting breast cancer and her close friend is right there with her fighting and supporting her through everything! My mom and I just cried--it hit so close to home! The passion in this dance and the story it portrayed was one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Bubba
Just thought I'd post a couple pictures of Bubba standing up in his standing frame!! I loved seeing him up...he's actually gotten taller since his accident. I put his arm around me so it could be like old times. When I did, his body spasmed and he almost fell out of the frame--oops but it was worth it..no harm done!! I miss that sometimes- not being able to just sit on the couch next to him and just hang out. We measured him and he's now 6' tall!! For reals he has definitely had a growth spurt-his head has even gotten bigger; when he got out of the hospital none of his hats fit-Devin loves that! :) I measured in at a giant 5'4".
Bubba just got home from a friends house and wanted to be set up on his drawing table. He is so patient!! It is quite a process to get everything right and I haven't helped with setting him up much so it took us a couple attempts but it all worked out and he's in his own little creative world!
Bubba just got home from a friends house and wanted to be set up on his drawing table. He is so patient!! It is quite a process to get everything right and I haven't helped with setting him up much so it took us a couple attempts but it all worked out and he's in his own little creative world!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
So You Think You Can Dance
I know I can't dance to save my life- even having had taken dance class as a little girl and my mom being my instructor--kind of like my brother in law Adam, who is Mexican, failing spanish in school and his mom was his teacher!! You either have it or you don't and I definitely don't! I find myself in complete awe at the talent some people in this world have!! Last night my family and I were watching So You Think You Can Dance and after one particular performance it was so intense that when it was over I just laughed--it was all I could do! One of the judges who is always loud and kind of obnoxious was speechless and she just laid her head down! The music was great too! See for yourself:
Another dance that was also very impressive. It was the Top 5 girls performing a Bollywood dance--check it out
They make it look completely effortless! It's so inspiring and makes me want to go take lessons again!
Another dance that was also very impressive. It was the Top 5 girls performing a Bollywood dance--check it out
They make it look completely effortless! It's so inspiring and makes me want to go take lessons again!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Unanswered Prayers
For 4th of July I went to Salt Lake and visited friends from college. While I was up there I stayed with my best friend Heather, her husband Omar and their two beautiful kids Sienna and Malachi. It was a great weekend filled with friends, family, a good ole fashioned backyard BBQ and fireworks!
The song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks played in my mind throughout the weekend. You will find that I tend to use song lyrics a lot-- I don't know if you've ever heard the Delilah show on the radio, well I am the future Delilah..my friends laugh because I can always find the "perfect" song to say how I'm/they're feeling or to put a situation or experience in perspective.
This weekend while in Utah I saw an old crush from college that I was crazy about back in the day; he and I always had the best time together! We've stayed in contact off and on and this weekend I saw him for the first time in years. It was really good to see him and once again we had a lot of fun together but it was different. Life is funny that way, as we grow up and experience dating there comes those relationships that in the moment seem so perfect, then it doesn't work out and you're crushed; as time passes you wonder what might have been. With each relationship comes different lessons learned and for me I've discovered thru dating the qualities I'm looking for in my partner and also the things I should maybe be more cautious of. I've developed a clearer perspective on what's really important in the long run. As excited as I am for the future and the opportunity to have a family of my own someday, I truly am grateful for those "unanswered prayers"! Looking back I can say that as hard as it sometimes seems I am grateful that I'm single; that I didn't marry the person I thought I wanted to marry when I was younger. Today I am more sure and confident in who I am as a woman, as a person and what I have to offer!
The song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks played in my mind throughout the weekend. You will find that I tend to use song lyrics a lot-- I don't know if you've ever heard the Delilah show on the radio, well I am the future Delilah..my friends laugh because I can always find the "perfect" song to say how I'm/they're feeling or to put a situation or experience in perspective.
This weekend while in Utah I saw an old crush from college that I was crazy about back in the day; he and I always had the best time together! We've stayed in contact off and on and this weekend I saw him for the first time in years. It was really good to see him and once again we had a lot of fun together but it was different. Life is funny that way, as we grow up and experience dating there comes those relationships that in the moment seem so perfect, then it doesn't work out and you're crushed; as time passes you wonder what might have been. With each relationship comes different lessons learned and for me I've discovered thru dating the qualities I'm looking for in my partner and also the things I should maybe be more cautious of. I've developed a clearer perspective on what's really important in the long run. As excited as I am for the future and the opportunity to have a family of my own someday, I truly am grateful for those "unanswered prayers"! Looking back I can say that as hard as it sometimes seems I am grateful that I'm single; that I didn't marry the person I thought I wanted to marry when I was younger. Today I am more sure and confident in who I am as a woman, as a person and what I have to offer!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I LOVE TENNIS!!!!
I just got home from playing tennis tonight and it was awesome! Tennis and I have been close friends for a long time now! I started taking lessons when I was in elementary school with Miss Schmoyer..I was in 3rd grade I think. Anyhow, we were living in Arizona at the time and when my family moved to New Mexico the lessons came to an end. Other than playing a little with my dad every once in awhile it wasn't until my 9th grade year back in Arizona that I really competed again.
Last week I started a tennis clinic Wednesday nights--LOVE IT!!! I met a girl named Lauren (in the picture she's in the middle) who just moved to Arizona about two weeks ago--she's from Dallas, Texas! Her and I got along really well instantly so after practice she and I stay after and play against each other! Tonight we stayed and played for an extra hour and had some sweet rallies going!! Nick, my coach,gave me some pointers on my forehand before he went in- so I worked on it tonight and I think I've got it :) The girls laugh at how fast I hit my backhand...we're ladies so I'm sure it's not THAT fast but it sounds fast!
Tennis for me is one of those things that when I don't play it for awhile and I get back out on the court it's on (that's my competitive side talking..haha) I may not come off as a competitve, sporty girl but don't let it fool you! :) Each time I finish playing tennis I'm reminded how passionate I am about the sport. I had forgotten what a good work out it is too!
In March I went to Palm Springs to watch the BNP Paribas pro tennis tournament at Indian Wells!! My old roommate Kambria from college came down from San Francisco and a few of her friends came down from Utah to go! I had no idea that such a huge tournament was so close to me..in my own backyard! I was in awe of the players skill and abilities-to see it in person was incredible...it put tv viewing to shame! While I was there I got to watch Tommy Haas practice. Shortly after we sat down to watch he was hit two balls to practice his serve with..as my luck would have it, one of the balls bounced over the net and right into my hands! Oh yes...that meant that this incredibly talented, good looking with his shirt off professional tennis player was going to have to come and get the ball from me! As I sat there waiting for him to get the other ball and come over all I could think about was how I better not mess up my toss to him; better not throw like a girl! People were everywhere and all eyes on me...just kidding but kind of not! He walked up looking at me straight in the eyes with his hand up signaling for me to toss him the ball and...I did...perfect toss;perfect in that he didn't have to run for it!! My heart was pounding as he smiled, said thanks and turned to continue playing!
I watched 13 solid hours of tennis in one day and got to see Rafael Nadal, Roger Federer, James Blake, Ana Ivanovic and Jelena Jankovic just to name a few!
Last week I started a tennis clinic Wednesday nights--LOVE IT!!! I met a girl named Lauren (in the picture she's in the middle) who just moved to Arizona about two weeks ago--she's from Dallas, Texas! Her and I got along really well instantly so after practice she and I stay after and play against each other! Tonight we stayed and played for an extra hour and had some sweet rallies going!! Nick, my coach,gave me some pointers on my forehand before he went in- so I worked on it tonight and I think I've got it :) The girls laugh at how fast I hit my backhand...we're ladies so I'm sure it's not THAT fast but it sounds fast!
Tennis for me is one of those things that when I don't play it for awhile and I get back out on the court it's on (that's my competitive side talking..haha) I may not come off as a competitve, sporty girl but don't let it fool you! :) Each time I finish playing tennis I'm reminded how passionate I am about the sport. I had forgotten what a good work out it is too!
In March I went to Palm Springs to watch the BNP Paribas pro tennis tournament at Indian Wells!! My old roommate Kambria from college came down from San Francisco and a few of her friends came down from Utah to go! I had no idea that such a huge tournament was so close to me..in my own backyard! I was in awe of the players skill and abilities-to see it in person was incredible...it put tv viewing to shame! While I was there I got to watch Tommy Haas practice. Shortly after we sat down to watch he was hit two balls to practice his serve with..as my luck would have it, one of the balls bounced over the net and right into my hands! Oh yes...that meant that this incredibly talented, good looking with his shirt off professional tennis player was going to have to come and get the ball from me! As I sat there waiting for him to get the other ball and come over all I could think about was how I better not mess up my toss to him; better not throw like a girl! People were everywhere and all eyes on me...just kidding but kind of not! He walked up looking at me straight in the eyes with his hand up signaling for me to toss him the ball and...I did...perfect toss;perfect in that he didn't have to run for it!! My heart was pounding as he smiled, said thanks and turned to continue playing!
I watched 13 solid hours of tennis in one day and got to see Rafael Nadal, Roger Federer, James Blake, Ana Ivanovic and Jelena Jankovic just to name a few!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Abide With Me
Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;
the darkness deepens; Lord, with me abide.
When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, O abide with me.
Swift to its close ebbs out life's little day;
earth's joys grow dim; its glories pass away;
change and decay in all around I see;
O thou who changest not, abide with me.
I need thy presence every passing hour.
What but thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with thee at hand to bless;
ills have no weight, and tears not bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if thou abide with me.
Hold thou thy cross before my closing eyes;
shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee;
in life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.
I need Thy presence every passing hour.
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.
The choir sang this song today at church and it was beautiful. I felt the Spirit so strong! As I sat through church I thought about a conversation I had with my mom and a close friend of ours who is also our home teacher, Corey Ellsworth last Sunday. Corey and his family are remarkable. He recently had a son pass away from muscular dystrophy; Corey was telling us about the moment Ethan was diagnosed at the age of 7 and his search to find peace and understand Gods plan for each of us and especially his young son. His answer came through a scripture in D&C 42:48 "And again, it shall come to pass that he that hath faith in me to be healed, and is not appointed unto death, shall be healed". He found peace in knowing that this illness was Ethan's appointment on this earth from our Heavenly Father. We talked about how the power of the Priesthood and Faith can heal those who are injured or ill but the outcome isn't always what we pray and hope for. Garrett would always say that he felt like when he turned 20 things would be different..he couldn't ever tell us what exactly would be different just that he would "start over"; work out more and eat better. Garrett broke his neck 12 days after his 20th birthday and has literally had to start over. Did Ethan and Garrett know what they were going to be faced with in this life? Was this the plan they accepted before coming to this earth? I believe they did; maybe not the full extent of it--they never complained or wondered "why me" they've accepted it and made the most of it. Before Ethan passed away he served a part time mission in the Genealogy Center, attended the community college here and gave incredible talks in church. He always had a smile on his face. This earth life is for us all to be tested and how we face the challenges put in our path. For Garrett, this may not be permanent; there may be medical advances that enable him to walk again in the future but this time is for him to learn all the lessons he can and strengthen his character; strengthen his testimony. I believe our patriartical blessing gives us a glimpse into what our appointment on this earth is. I find a lot of comfort in reading mine and the promises that are made if I do my part. I know that the Lord knows us individually and never gives us more than we can handle. I find peace in knowing that life is eternal and this earth life is but a small moment.
**Little lighter note***
Amber gave a fantastic lesson in Relief Society today...Good Job AA! After church the girls and I were going to take a picture and this guy came up and asked our names...I told him my name was Jessika and he asked me "2 S's?" and I said "and a K"--the picture shows just what happened next...(he told me he kisses faces too!! LOL)
the darkness deepens; Lord, with me abide.
When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, O abide with me.
Swift to its close ebbs out life's little day;
earth's joys grow dim; its glories pass away;
change and decay in all around I see;
O thou who changest not, abide with me.
I need thy presence every passing hour.
What but thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with thee at hand to bless;
ills have no weight, and tears not bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if thou abide with me.
Hold thou thy cross before my closing eyes;
shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee;
in life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.
I need Thy presence every passing hour.
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth's vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.
The choir sang this song today at church and it was beautiful. I felt the Spirit so strong! As I sat through church I thought about a conversation I had with my mom and a close friend of ours who is also our home teacher, Corey Ellsworth last Sunday. Corey and his family are remarkable. He recently had a son pass away from muscular dystrophy; Corey was telling us about the moment Ethan was diagnosed at the age of 7 and his search to find peace and understand Gods plan for each of us and especially his young son. His answer came through a scripture in D&C 42:48 "And again, it shall come to pass that he that hath faith in me to be healed, and is not appointed unto death, shall be healed". He found peace in knowing that this illness was Ethan's appointment on this earth from our Heavenly Father. We talked about how the power of the Priesthood and Faith can heal those who are injured or ill but the outcome isn't always what we pray and hope for. Garrett would always say that he felt like when he turned 20 things would be different..he couldn't ever tell us what exactly would be different just that he would "start over"; work out more and eat better. Garrett broke his neck 12 days after his 20th birthday and has literally had to start over. Did Ethan and Garrett know what they were going to be faced with in this life? Was this the plan they accepted before coming to this earth? I believe they did; maybe not the full extent of it--they never complained or wondered "why me" they've accepted it and made the most of it. Before Ethan passed away he served a part time mission in the Genealogy Center, attended the community college here and gave incredible talks in church. He always had a smile on his face. This earth life is for us all to be tested and how we face the challenges put in our path. For Garrett, this may not be permanent; there may be medical advances that enable him to walk again in the future but this time is for him to learn all the lessons he can and strengthen his character; strengthen his testimony. I believe our patriartical blessing gives us a glimpse into what our appointment on this earth is. I find a lot of comfort in reading mine and the promises that are made if I do my part. I know that the Lord knows us individually and never gives us more than we can handle. I find peace in knowing that life is eternal and this earth life is but a small moment.
**Little lighter note***
Amber gave a fantastic lesson in Relief Society today...Good Job AA! After church the girls and I were going to take a picture and this guy came up and asked our names...I told him my name was Jessika and he asked me "2 S's?" and I said "and a K"--the picture shows just what happened next...(he told me he kisses faces too!! LOL)
Family Update
The only other time I’ve ever kept something up like this was the night Garrett had his accident and I sent daily updates to family and friends throughout his surgery and hospital stay. These days I'm surrounded by Bloggers and if I can't beat them I might as well join them ..So here it goes...
I rented my house out in April and moved back into my moms house! Its been a lot of fun and I’m glad to be able to help out more and spend time with Bubba and Mom! It’s also a mile from my office which is perfect. I’ve been fortunate to be able to travel a lot lately as well! I went to San Francisco for the first time in April and loved it; what a beautiful city! I just got back from an amazing trip to Greece and Italy for my friend Maya’s 30th birthday! We went for two weeks and went to Athens, Mykonos and Santorini Islands in Greece, Rome and Florence, Italy. I got my favorite haircut at a salon on Mykonos Island by Lucas from Switzerland! He was hilarious!! It was beautiful and a great experience! While it was amazing I was ready to be home!
My mom is amazing as always. She is Garrett's full time caregiver and started just last week coming down to my office and helping one of the other processors a few hours a day—I don’t know how she does it! Since the night of the accident she has been so strong and continues to do whatever is necessary to to give Garrett the best chance of a full recovery. She’s the most selfless person I’ve ever met and am so proud to be her daughter. I tell her and Garrett that if and when he walks again there is going to be major separation anxiety and I can’t quite tell who will have it worse between the two. They have formed such a special bond and it has been really neat to see. Her house is all remodeled and it’s beautiful! My Aunt Pam and cousin Carli came over while I was in Europe and hung pictures and put finishing touches throughout the house. They did a really nice job and my mom had darling things for them to work with.
Colby and Adam got married January 23rd of this year after 3 years of dating and are doing amazing! She is officially Mrs. Colby Barnes!! The wedding was beautiful and everything went perfectly! Especially my Maid of Honor speech! They really enjoy each others company and are the best of friends. They have a house in Gilbert with their 3 dogs…Simba, Diesel and Marley—their bulldog who was also the ring bearer in the wedding! We love Adam and he is the perfect fit! He is my 3rd brother and maybe the most protective; my poor husband (whomever that may be) will have quite the interview process! Colby works at the same mortgage company I do—LOVE IT!! They just got back from Hawaii and had a great time!
Devin also has a house in Gilbert with 3 roommates! He is waiting for his new job to start so he has been helping out with Bubba---the boys have a lot of fun together! Cooking new creations and working out. Devin is a huge help and a fantastic brother!
Garrett aka Bubba as many of you know and for those who don’t sustained a severe injury from a freak gymnastics accident November 14, 2007 in which he broke his C5/C6vertebrae in his neck leaving him paralyzed from his chest down. He attends physical therapy at Project Walk in Carlsbad, California as often as we can get him there; in fact he and my mom go back next Sunday for two more weeks of therapy. He is doing SO good! Last time he was in California his therapists could see a lot of improvement in his strength and his body responding to the treatment!! He’s going in for an outpatient surgery to blast and remove 4 bladder stones the size of olive pits! He’s been having constant UTI’s (urinary tract infection) and a CAT scan revealed the source of the problem! I told Bubba he needs to get a copy of the film because we have a copy of his appendix that burst and his neck post surgery—we need the stones! Poor kid. Bubba still amazes me all the time with his optimistic attitude and perspective throughout this entire tragedy/experience! My family and I were laughing the other night at how everywhere he goes people remember him and they just love him—even a cute girl that works at Chipotle saw Garrett at the mall and stopped to say hi! LOL He went out with Devin and his friends the other night and came home telling us how Bubba got all the ladies! He’s still got that charm!
I rented my house out in April and moved back into my moms house! Its been a lot of fun and I’m glad to be able to help out more and spend time with Bubba and Mom! It’s also a mile from my office which is perfect. I’ve been fortunate to be able to travel a lot lately as well! I went to San Francisco for the first time in April and loved it; what a beautiful city! I just got back from an amazing trip to Greece and Italy for my friend Maya’s 30th birthday! We went for two weeks and went to Athens, Mykonos and Santorini Islands in Greece, Rome and Florence, Italy. I got my favorite haircut at a salon on Mykonos Island by Lucas from Switzerland! He was hilarious!! It was beautiful and a great experience! While it was amazing I was ready to be home!
My mom is amazing as always. She is Garrett's full time caregiver and started just last week coming down to my office and helping one of the other processors a few hours a day—I don’t know how she does it! Since the night of the accident she has been so strong and continues to do whatever is necessary to to give Garrett the best chance of a full recovery. She’s the most selfless person I’ve ever met and am so proud to be her daughter. I tell her and Garrett that if and when he walks again there is going to be major separation anxiety and I can’t quite tell who will have it worse between the two. They have formed such a special bond and it has been really neat to see. Her house is all remodeled and it’s beautiful! My Aunt Pam and cousin Carli came over while I was in Europe and hung pictures and put finishing touches throughout the house. They did a really nice job and my mom had darling things for them to work with.
Colby and Adam got married January 23rd of this year after 3 years of dating and are doing amazing! She is officially Mrs. Colby Barnes!! The wedding was beautiful and everything went perfectly! Especially my Maid of Honor speech! They really enjoy each others company and are the best of friends. They have a house in Gilbert with their 3 dogs…Simba, Diesel and Marley—their bulldog who was also the ring bearer in the wedding! We love Adam and he is the perfect fit! He is my 3rd brother and maybe the most protective; my poor husband (whomever that may be) will have quite the interview process! Colby works at the same mortgage company I do—LOVE IT!! They just got back from Hawaii and had a great time!
Devin also has a house in Gilbert with 3 roommates! He is waiting for his new job to start so he has been helping out with Bubba---the boys have a lot of fun together! Cooking new creations and working out. Devin is a huge help and a fantastic brother!
Garrett aka Bubba as many of you know and for those who don’t sustained a severe injury from a freak gymnastics accident November 14, 2007 in which he broke his C5/C6vertebrae in his neck leaving him paralyzed from his chest down. He attends physical therapy at Project Walk in Carlsbad, California as often as we can get him there; in fact he and my mom go back next Sunday for two more weeks of therapy. He is doing SO good! Last time he was in California his therapists could see a lot of improvement in his strength and his body responding to the treatment!! He’s going in for an outpatient surgery to blast and remove 4 bladder stones the size of olive pits! He’s been having constant UTI’s (urinary tract infection) and a CAT scan revealed the source of the problem! I told Bubba he needs to get a copy of the film because we have a copy of his appendix that burst and his neck post surgery—we need the stones! Poor kid. Bubba still amazes me all the time with his optimistic attitude and perspective throughout this entire tragedy/experience! My family and I were laughing the other night at how everywhere he goes people remember him and they just love him—even a cute girl that works at Chipotle saw Garrett at the mall and stopped to say hi! LOL He went out with Devin and his friends the other night and came home telling us how Bubba got all the ladies! He’s still got that charm!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Gratitude
**I wrote this December 11, 2008...It embodies the perspective and growth I've experienced over the last year and a half--and the perspective I strive to maintain and build upon**
Friends and Family,
My heart is SO full today and I have seen and felt many tender mercies the past couple weeks and especially today. Last week I attended the viewing for my roommate Brittney's mom who sadly lost a short, but hard fought battle to lung cancer. She left behind a beautiful family and loving husband. Today I attended the funeral of my friend Justin's wife, Susan. She too lost a very short hard fought battle to colon cancer at a far too young age of 25. As I sat at the funeral today Susan's dad stood up and gave an amazing talk and in it he challenged us to follow the feelings or promptings we were feeling that moment- improve on the aspect of our individual lives to better ourselves and in turn better those we come in contact with. That is how Susan lived and while I didn't know her as directly or as well as others I was impressed by her spirit and you could see the light she was to so many. As I sat there I realized many things in my own personal life that I need to and want to work on. Each of these families effected by loss carried themselves with such courage and a sense of peace and calm. I can only imagine what they are feeling at this time. My heart aches for them. They each have a strong testimony and knowledge of the promise of eternal families- what a comfort. My heart breaks for Justin- he and Susan dated off and on for about two years and finally just this January they were married for time and all eternity. Less than a year later she is gone...for now. I cannot imagine finding your soul mate and loving someone SO much and then to lose them so quickly. While we don't know our Fathers plan for us I do know that it's a much bigger picture than we can see. The recent events have made me reflect on and appreciate the relationships I have and reiterated how precious life is and to not waste time- make the most out of everyday. If you care about someone let them know, tell those you love how much you love them as often as you can!
I'm grateful for my knowledge of eternal families and the Lords plan for each and everyone of us. I know that is what will get Justin and his and Susan's family and Brittney and her family through this tough time in their lives. The understanding that the time on this earth is but just a small piece of eternity. I felt blessed to have been able to attend the funeral service today- it was inspiring. With the new year around the corner I hope we can all reevaluate our lives and where we are and strive to become more diligent in the things most important and strive to better ourselves.
I love my family so much and am grateful for each and every one of them. I had the privilege of helping my brother Garrett prepare a talk for church a couple of weeks ago on the Power of Prayer and his experiences since his accident. It will forever be one of my most treasured memories. The spirit he possesses is remarkable and the trials he has faced over the past year to anyone would be incredibly overwhelming but he has faced each one with such grace and faith that I'm forever in awe of him. I love you Bubba and am so proud of you. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey! I love you!
I love all of my friends and am thankful for your friendship and your example. If I can ever be of service please let me know and know that I'm always here for each and every one of you!
These are the things on my heart tonight- writing this may be for my own selfish reasons but my hope is that we can all strive to become a better people and help to better each other.
Friends and Family,
My heart is SO full today and I have seen and felt many tender mercies the past couple weeks and especially today. Last week I attended the viewing for my roommate Brittney's mom who sadly lost a short, but hard fought battle to lung cancer. She left behind a beautiful family and loving husband. Today I attended the funeral of my friend Justin's wife, Susan. She too lost a very short hard fought battle to colon cancer at a far too young age of 25. As I sat at the funeral today Susan's dad stood up and gave an amazing talk and in it he challenged us to follow the feelings or promptings we were feeling that moment- improve on the aspect of our individual lives to better ourselves and in turn better those we come in contact with. That is how Susan lived and while I didn't know her as directly or as well as others I was impressed by her spirit and you could see the light she was to so many. As I sat there I realized many things in my own personal life that I need to and want to work on. Each of these families effected by loss carried themselves with such courage and a sense of peace and calm. I can only imagine what they are feeling at this time. My heart aches for them. They each have a strong testimony and knowledge of the promise of eternal families- what a comfort. My heart breaks for Justin- he and Susan dated off and on for about two years and finally just this January they were married for time and all eternity. Less than a year later she is gone...for now. I cannot imagine finding your soul mate and loving someone SO much and then to lose them so quickly. While we don't know our Fathers plan for us I do know that it's a much bigger picture than we can see. The recent events have made me reflect on and appreciate the relationships I have and reiterated how precious life is and to not waste time- make the most out of everyday. If you care about someone let them know, tell those you love how much you love them as often as you can!
I'm grateful for my knowledge of eternal families and the Lords plan for each and everyone of us. I know that is what will get Justin and his and Susan's family and Brittney and her family through this tough time in their lives. The understanding that the time on this earth is but just a small piece of eternity. I felt blessed to have been able to attend the funeral service today- it was inspiring. With the new year around the corner I hope we can all reevaluate our lives and where we are and strive to become more diligent in the things most important and strive to better ourselves.
I love my family so much and am grateful for each and every one of them. I had the privilege of helping my brother Garrett prepare a talk for church a couple of weeks ago on the Power of Prayer and his experiences since his accident. It will forever be one of my most treasured memories. The spirit he possesses is remarkable and the trials he has faced over the past year to anyone would be incredibly overwhelming but he has faced each one with such grace and faith that I'm forever in awe of him. I love you Bubba and am so proud of you. Thank you for letting me be a part of your journey! I love you!
I love all of my friends and am thankful for your friendship and your example. If I can ever be of service please let me know and know that I'm always here for each and every one of you!
These are the things on my heart tonight- writing this may be for my own selfish reasons but my hope is that we can all strive to become a better people and help to better each other.
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